Think About Death Before You Need To

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My twenty-nine year old son is going to turn me into a tree when I die, I’m pretty sure.  I think he/they should do whatever they want, and whatever they need.

I am reading a novel called Beautiful Day by Elin Hilderbrand, in which a woman, dead for seven years, left a notebook written for her young daughter’s future wedding.  “The Notebook” came complete with excruciatingly detailed directives.  Maybe the sentiment is nice, but to me it screams control freak.

Death is one of those scary things that we can’t even pretend to control.  We are forced into submitting, and for the most part none of us like it.

I think our culture does a lousy job preparing us for death, which doesn’t make much sense.  It’s one of the classes they should add to our high school curriculum, along with Lasting Relationships, Parenting with Boundaries/Love (same thing, my dad says), How to Forgive, How to Train Your Pets, and Housekeeping/Laundry Basics.

Elisabeth Kubler-Ross wrote the definitive primer about dying in 1969, called On Death and Dying.  It’s worth the read.  I owned it for years before I could talk myself into looking at it.  Yukky subject.  Or so says my conditioning.

Dr. Kubler-Ross was a Swiss-American psychiatrist (1926-2004) who interviewed and studied people while they were dying.  Of course there are many things to learn from her work, the most widely known being her theory of the five stages of grief (denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance).

My takeaway from the book was how much better it will be to mentally prepare myself for death, starting now, before it is a known, immmediate issue for me.

Dr. Kubler-Ross says that we should all seriously consider what we believe happens after death.  She says to spend time with the thought, and then let it go for awhile.  Then, the next time you encounter it, for instance when a neighbor dies, think about it again.  Then let it go again.

She says that by the time you do this a few times, you will come to a belief.  Elisabeth Kubler-Ross says that this belief will result in a comfort level for you about your own death.  She says that then, when you hear that your own death may be imminent, it will feel okay.  It will freak you out a lot less.

Here are a few of her quotes:

“Dying is nothing to fear.  It can be the most wonderful experience of your life.  It all depends on how you have lived.”

“Those who learned to know death, rather than to fear and fight it, became our teachers about life.”

“For those who seek to understand it, death is a highly creative force.  The highest spiritual values of life can originate from the thought and study of death.”

“I’ve told my children that when I die, to release balloons in the sky to celebrate that I graduated.  For me, death is a graduation.”

Here’s my favorite song about life, I Believe in You, by Don Williams.  I think the two subjects are beautifully complementary.

Here’s a link to the tree.  He’s texted it to me not once, but twice, many months apart.  I guess I have a bit of a natural edge to me, so I’m thinking he’s thinking it’s a good fit.  Cracks me up.

You might want to follow the foundation of Dr. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross on Twitter @kublerross

Mother Teresa – My Hero 


It was inevitable.  We always knew she would be a saint.  Everybody knew.  She had to have known, too, as much as she didn’t want to.

One thing the Catholic Church does pretty well is teach people to be humble.  I watched as the most brilliant kids in our local Jesuit high school were told that their talents were gifts from God, during the awards ceremony at their graduation. Now it was their responsibility to go use them to help others.  They were to put their God given superintellects to work to improve this world.

No public pats on the back for all of the hard work, for beating everybody else, (there was some fierce competition), for being way above and beyond smart; no ‘Glory be to (fill in the student name)‘.

Ego is the enemy; helping others is the point – without letting ego get in the way, which it does so easily.  It can be a little confusing because even helping others is really about our own needs, because ultimately we are doing whatever we are doing to make us feel good.

So from this environment comes my role model from afar… Calcutta (Kolkata) India to be exact.  Agnes Gonxha Bojaxhiu.  Mother Teresa.  I’ve been enthralled with her for a long time.

Just how can anyone be so selfless?   So extremely devoted to everyone else?  I can be pretty darned devoted to the others in my life, but honestly, not to the exclusion of my own comfort and happiness.  I have definitely not taken the vows of poverty, chastity, and obedience that she has.  Nor have I taken her fourth vow of ‘wholehearted free service to the poorest of the poor’.  I can’t find it right now, but I think Missionaries of Charity are allowed to own, like, five things.  The list went something like:  a Bible, a comb, a plate, a fork and a cup. Oh my heart..my stuff,  my closets full of stuff…

Mother Teresa thought that she wanted to become a nun at the age of twelve.  I’ll never forget reading in one of her biographies that when at the age of eighteen she told her mother (who was a widow; Agnes’ father had died suddenly when she was eight), her mother went and locked herself in her bedroom for twenty-four hours and wept.  When she came out, she had accepted her daughter’s decision, and helped her leave for Ireland from The Republic of Macedonia, to teach as a Sister of Loreto.

Macedonia is in southeastern Europe.  It’s bordering countries are Kosova, Serbia, Bulgaria, Greece, and Albania (where her folks were from, and where she was born).  Her mom knew that she would likely never see Agnes again, as this was in 1928, and the distance was dramatic.  They never did see each other again.  I don’t think I could do that, either.

She only taught in Ireland for a year, where she was given the title of ‘Mother’, and the name ‘Teresa’ after Saint Therese of Liseux.  All of the nuns in the order were addressed as ‘Mother’.  After a year of teaching, she was assigned to be an educator in a school for girls in a poor part of Calcutta, India, where she spent seventeen years and eventually became the principal.

It bothered her very much to see the sick and destitute outside the fences of the school, so she basically petitioned the powers that be within the church and eventually was allowed to start her own order.  Her order, the Missionaries of Charity, wear plain and simple white robes with blue lines, and a head covering that makes me want to wrap my clean hair in it after I have showered, made of the same simple white fabric with blue lines.  These women are nuns dedicated to helping ‘the unwanted, the unloved, and the uncared for’.

Mother Teresa talked the City of Calcutta into giving her a dilapidated building.  She took six months of medical training, and then she went to work helping these poor, hungry, sick people who had no one taking care of them.  The first thing that she started was a facility for them to come to instead of being on the street – to have a place to be, and people to take care of them, while they died.  Um, I haven’t done that yet, either.

I remember that when she won the Nobel Peace Prize in 1979 for ‘bringing help to suffering humanity’, what I loved the most was that there was a banquet budget of $7,000, and she was aghast at how much was going to be spent.  She wanted to know if she could have the money instead, which they gave her.  She asked, apparently with incredulity, ‘Do you know how many people I can feed with this much money?’

Oh, I could never live up to her.  She was phenomenal to watch.  Inspiring to say the least.  Pretty cool that we had this quiet, petite little dynamo in our lifetime.  It’s been such a pleasure.

Here’s a copy of her Nobel Lecture in case you might be interested in reading it.

Her life was lived between 1910 and 1997.